Leaving

3:36 a.m. This morning, I rolled over, finally looked at my watch and called it a sleep.

An hour later, I got up to “work on” a few articles that I am excited and terrified to write. Today, I no longer see that conundrum of “excited and terrified” as noble or a mark of anything, but meh. And as I poured the coffee, watered the pups and opened the cottage-where-no-rain-or-words-had come, a thought lodged itself deep into my slow wakening:

“I want to leave only love and memories behind; not a list of what I was going to do.”

Not the art or writing or new blog or plants or people or traveling or listening or learning the cello or sitting quietly without my phone … with my people in the backyard, front stoop, curled up on a mountain of pillows, ideas, love and home. I don’t want to miss a moment – even a moment to myself or listening to hard truths that invite me to step up.

Not so much a stake in the ground, but a seed taking root.

Again.

What are you leaving behind?


One thought on “Leaving

  1. I enjoy your writing so much. Do you have a new book or magazine that gives you deadlines? I would struggle for days, even weeks, to meet deadlines and the words would come, usually, about 2:00 a.m! I began to believe that they could not brake through the noise of responsibilities and the clutter of other peoples’ brain waves until the wee hours.

    To answer your question, I believe that the only afterlife a person is given is in the memories of loved ones. I am trying to create memories now. 🙂

    Kate

    On Wed, Apr 28, 2021 at 5:34 AM Adventure and Wonder wrote:

    > allielousch posted: ” 3:36 a.m. This morning, I rolled over, finally > looked at my watch and called it a sleep. An hour later, I got up to “work > on” a few articles that I am excited and terrified to write. Today, I no > longer see that conundrum of “excited and terrified” as” >

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